When I was still alone (and I mean literally living alone), it seemed like life was so simple. I used to live in a small room (around 12-15 meter squares) with just a bed and a closet, I don’t even have my own bathroom, I had to share it with other renters. I eat anything at anytime I want, hey! I may even just go sleep without eating (it’s a lazy way to get sick, hahaha!). I can go window shop every afternoon, dreaming about owning this and owning that… ahhh… life has never been easier!

Then Nicholas came and bang! Everything has to change!

Well, before I continue, I would like to say I am never sorry that I became a member of the prestigious motherhood club. I am never sorry that I was blessed with a very handsome, smart and healthy bundle of joy. No, this is isn’t about me feeling sorry for myself because I have to change my lifestyle. This is about a realization, this is about me embracing the wonderful life of being a mother.

Ok, let’s go back to business shall we?

As I was saying, it’s different now. With my angel, I choose not to settle for anything less. I want to give him the best, to do everything I can to make him a very happy and secure baby. Like, I had to buy my own computer for me to be able to work at home and personally attend to his needs. Or I had to go shopping for all his needs even before he was born. Or I had to go for monthly visits, maintain vitamins, make sure I was healthy and safe for him. I mean, I am a single Mom, and I was earning for myself. I didn’t have much money then. I didn’t even have enough for the cesarean section.So when did I get the money for this? Yeah, I borrowed. I have a credit card, I used it to prepare for my baby’s arrival, and now, I am still paying it. Oh well, I will pay until I ran out of money, I’ll borrow and borrow again if it means I can give my baby everything he needs.

Yeah, even buying him Cheetos so he can snack on it while watching his favorite kiddie TV commercials/ads, hahaha! That’s really cute!

Or shopping for his daily needs or even wants if I can give it to him. Errr… his stuff doesn’t really come from Ace Harware, but well, I can’t let him carry a heavy bag of baby liquid soap, baby lotion, milk, diapers, and more!

Or making him look smart and cool especially on an event like pictorials for his passport

Or going to a playsite where he can have fun interacting with other kids or have access to toys he doesn’t have at home.

So yes, now, I’m not enjoying the cellphone plans that I used to overpay anyways, hehehe! And now, I don’t see any movement or growth on my savings account. And yes, I’m not using my credit card anymore. I need help in saving money, I need help to shrink my bills. And I have to do all these not to the expense of my son’s needs and wants. Do I need a part-time job? Or maybe I need to change jobs (hey! that’s tempting considering the never-ending salary delays). Or maybe I just need to change my spending habits? But heck! I don’t even have much to spend! My salary comes and go, faster than my college allowance I’ll just laugh about this then. I’ll just enjoy every moment with my son, enjoy his smiles and laughters, enjoy his happiness, his health, his well-being… I am ok with the present situation (well, as long as the credit card company doesn’t put me in jail, hahaha!), I am surviving. Thanks to Mark and his kindness, thanks for his loving support and matured guidance.

Ok, shall we talk about finding another job? Hehehe!

Hmmm… Wondering what happened to it?  Here’s the culprit!

Ahhh! Monster! LOL! Yeah, my little darling’s teeth are so sharp I guess (nah, that’s not a guess, I’m sure they are sharp, my arms, my shoulders and my hands have been bitten by those for so many times already). Look what he did to his bottle nipple! What happened was that, we were having dinner (he loves rice with any viand) and were actually having a good time. Then I thought he’s got enough already so I told him “enough baby, here’s your water” (my fault, I didn’t give him his cup instead).

It turned out he didn’t like to stop eating yet so he got a little mad and bit the bottle nipple. He then shook his head (guess to say no) with a little too much emphasis (while his teeth are firmly attached to the bottle nipple). I was laughing because I thought it was cute. But then when he released the nipple I stopped laughing. I think I choked on my laughter. The bottle nipple is already cut in half and the other half is missing!

I then and there stood up, told him to open his mouth and reached inside. I was relieved that the other half of the bottle nipple was still in his mouth and he didn’t swallow it yet. When I held the other half on my hand, Nicholas and I were laughing and the nanny was laughing so hard as well. Oh boy! I had to kiss him and tell him never to do that again. It’s good I have a strong heart or I’ll have a stroke or some kind of a nervous breakdown

Oh well, one bottle nipple down. I was actually planning to replace that rubber nipple anyways since it’s the only one of those kind among his 9 bottles, the rest are made of silicone (same brand too), I just kept on forgetting about it. I guess that’s Nicholas way of reminding me huh! I have to make sure I don’t forget stuff like this again so this funny (and dangerous!) incident won’t happen again. But of course, I should never buy one of those cheap bottle nipples again.

I want one Mommy, please…..

This is cousin Keeshia’s bestfriend toy. its name is Chopper. It is a dinosaur, a cute little dinosaur in purple It starred in a tear-jerker cartoon movie “The Land Before Time” (I know Mom loves that movie). Cousin Keeshia loves Chopper so much and I can see why. The first time I saw it, I got so mesmerized with it that I hugged it and slobbered it with kisses! I can just see my cousin’s scowling face hehehe!

Well, Chopper is 9 years old already. It has been with my cousin Keeshia for 9 years and she won’t sleep without it by her side. I want to have my own Chopper too, it’s the cutest stuff toy that I’ve seen, I fell in love with it. Too bad cousin Keeshia won’t let me have it. I hope Mommy finds me my own Chopper too. I can’t wait to smother it with my kisses!

Sigh, I know Mommy’s having a hard time looking for my Chopper but I hope she won’t give up

I know this is too late a post for my little angel but well, I was reading a book this afternoon and realized just how “unprepared” I was for my baby’s arrival. I mean, in the book, the heroine, Jo, was getting busy preparing a Baby Shower for her soon-to-be-Mom bestfriend. I know I’m a little jealous because no one really went through such trouble for my little angel and me but I guess I can’t blame my friends and relatives because I’m pretty far from them.

My Own Baby Shower of Love

Then I found myself imagining what could be my baby’s theme, his motif if I ever had a baby shower for him. I mentally “ohhed” and ‘ahhed” to the colorful and magical images that came into my mind. I got so excited that I went to my computer right there and then and started looking out for baby shower themes in the net.

I was rather delighted when I found Bellissimo Favors. It is actually a great online shop for bridal and baby shower favors and all other favors and stuff for all occasions! I excitedly clicked “Baby Shower Gifts for Mom-To-Be” and oh boy was I envious! Wouldn’t I love to have that adorable “Pig in a Blanket”? It reminds me so much of the silly game that my little angel and I used to play (we play “let’s sell this pig to the market” when he was still smaller and lighter).

Pig in a Blanket @ Bellissimo Favors

And what about that “Welcome to the World” gift set? Shucks! It’s way too cute! I want those! And gosh! They even have personalized baby shower hang tags! Sigh! Why didn’t I have my own baby shower? Now I’m really jealous of Jo’s bestfriend! Tsk!

Welcome to the World Set @ Bellissimo Favors

Oh well, I’ll make sure I’m ready for my little angel’s first birthday! I know it’s still 5 months away but it doesn’t hurt to be prepared right?

I’m currently looking up the net for good books. Nope, Nico is really smart but he can’t read yet Yet, I’m looking for children’s books to read to my little angel every night.

At his age, Nico is very curious about the different sounds and the different images that he sees. I think it’s the best time for him to learn from books. Hmmm, I’m not really grooming him to be a bookworm like me (sheesh!) but it seems fun to read those books to Nico.

Anyways, while searching online, I came across a site wherein various books can be found may it be academic (high school or college books), self-help books, religion, parenting, and more! It’s just sad that I found no “Children’s” category. I just think it’s a good place to buy (and even sell) books. I have nothing against second hand books as long as they’re still in good condition and Valore Books prides itself for its thousands of second-hand books in great condition.

I guess, I’ll shop for parenting books as well, along with Nico’s illustrated books. Shop with me! You’ll enjoy browsing