Our Little Nicholas

I play these roles…




It’s hard but I’m left with no choice. I have to give my son the “family” that he deserves. Oh I have my parents, my Mama and Papa surely loves my little angel. My sisters, brothers-in-law, nieces and one and only nephew loves him too, no doubt about that. And since Nico is a very lovable child, all my relatives love him too. But sad to say, as much as they love my son, they can never play the role of a father to him. But I can, and I will.




I’m sure you can read the bitterness between the lines. Ok, I admit, maybe I’m a little bitter. Who wouldn’t be in this situation? I’m a human being after all. But in top of my bitterness is a realistic person. I know a truth when I see one. And the truth is, it’s better this way. The truth is, I’m having false hope on something that will not happen. The truth is, I’m better off alone in raising my son.

I ended everything up with “the biological father“, I am closing the door, finally and firmly. And after thinking and rethinking about it, I think I’m going to close my doors on my personal happiness as well. My son is my priority right now. He is my life, I will do everything to make him happy, to raise him not only as a good son, a good Christian, but also as a good person. I’ll teach him not to hurt women and men as well. I’ll never plant any seed of hatred, anger and pain in his heart, he should be free of such burdens, he shouldn’t be like me…




This is indeed a big responsibility, something that they don’t teach in school, something that I never learned in college. But with the guidance of my loveones and the Almighty Creator, I know I’ll do well.




I love you so much my little darling, and Mommy will make sure everything’s gonna be alright.. I’m certain… that I can be… a mother… and a father…

Tags: broken family, fatherhood, motherhood, responsibilities, single mother, single parent

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