Sigh…. My poor baby has got all of those 
Because of the discomfort that these illnesses is giving him, he cries all the time, making me feel like an irresponsible mother, like I was not taking care of him enough to save him from harm. I don’t like hearing my little Nicholas cry, it’s breaking my heart into bits and pieces.
That is why, last Tuesday, even if I am reluctant to bring him to his pediatrician because it’s still raining (it’s been raining [and flooding] for a week now), I had no choice. I got him all covered up but I still felt stupid carrying the bay out in that kind of weather but I have no other alternative, the doctor certainly won’t do a home service and if she will, I bet I can’t afford it.
Dr. Go checked my baby for almost an eternity, while I waited, heart pounding for what she’ll have to say. I sighed a relief when she said the fever isn’t high at all, it was just his body’s normal reaction to his colds. She prescribed Alnix (Cetirizine Dihydrochloride) for allergic rhinitis, which Nico will be taking .25ml two times a day. She also prescribed Salinase (Sodium Chloride) Nasal Drops to moisturize Nico’s dry and stuffy nostrils because of his colds. When the doctor told me about Nico’s skin allergy, I felt stupid and irresponsible again. She asked me about my diet. Have I been eating eggs? I said YES. What about chicken. Again, a YES. Hotdog? Another YES from me. The doctor gave me a sad look then she smiled telling me to stop eating those because my baby is allergic to them. I almost slapped myself. Now I caused my baby’s allergy. He’s got all this yellow thick patches all over his brow and forehead and his cradle crap is in the “critical” level because of my foolishness. Sigh! The doctor then said no worries, the allergy will go away with Elica (Mometasoene Furoate), a liquid lotion for the relief of inflammatory manifestations of corticosteroid responsive dermatoses. I have to apply the liquid to the affected areas twice a day.
I left my little angel to the care of his Nanny at home then I went to the Pharmacy to fill up the prescription. I actually used my last money for the medicine since the 30ml of Elica alone costs 720 pesos, while 10ml of Alnix costs 140 pesos and 30ml of Salinase costs 60
pesos. Nevertheless, I told myself, I just have to find ways to find money for food this week
(before payroll), my baby’s medication is my foremost priority right now.
It’s really difficult to be a mother, this is just one of the many challenges that I know I’ll be facing in the future. I just hope I’ll cope up with everything, all for the sake of my little angel. I’ll do everything for him. I love my little Nicholas so much.
