Mommy created a playlist for Little Nicholas in Multiply. The title of the playlist is Little Nico’s Nursery Rhymes. Mommy is sharing this to every Mom out there who might be interested and wants to download the playlist as well for their little angels. The playlist contains 46 songs; some of which are rather silly (hihihi!). But oh well, these are children rhymes anyway, I’ll teach Little Nicholas sensible and beautiful songs when he’s ready for it.

3 Little Fishies

A B C D

Ain’t It Great To Be Crazy

Apples And Bananas

Are You Sleeping

Are You Sleeping

Baa, Baa, Black Sheep

Be Kind To Your Web Footed Friends

Eency Weency Spider

Head And Shoulders, Knees and Toes

Humpty Dumpty

Hush Little Baby - Anne Murray

Hush Little Baby - Barney & Friends

I’m A Little Teapot

Jack and Jill

Lazy Mary

Little Bo Peep

Apples And Bananas

Are You Sleeping

Little Miss Muffet

London Bridge Is Falling Down

Mary Had A Little Lamb

Mockinbird - Toby Keith and Krystal

Oh My Darlin’ Clementine

Old MacDonald

One Finger One Thumb

One Potato

Pat A Cake, Pat A Cake

Row, Row, Row Your Boat

Rub-A-Dub-Dub

Shoo, Fly

Pop! Goes The Weasel!

Puff The Magic Dragon

Ring Around The Rosies

Take Me Out To The Ballgame

The Cat Came Back

The More We Get Together

The Muffin Man

The Old Gray Mare

The Wheels On The Bus

There Was An Old Lady Who Swallow

There’s a hole in the bucket

This Old Man

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star - Instrumental

When You Wish Upon A Star

Zip-A-Deoo-Doo-Dah

There! Mommy’s actually looking for great lullabies right now. Hmmm… maybe I’ll have Disney’s Album; that would be great! I’ll share that to you when I get that. Happy listening!

Since Little Nicholas is coming (felt like he’s knocking on the doors), Mommy mustered the courage to watch actual birth videos @ YouTube. Well, there are so many available videos to watch but what caught Mommy’s attention are these two videos entitled Pregnant Woman Giving Birth and Real Childbirth Video (I decided not to embed the videos here, some might not like the bloody scenes).

Mommy swallowed her saliva again and again while watching the videos. That’s how they do it? Some comments are right, it’s really scary! Do doctors really have to twist the baby’s head here and there? Is it really that bloody? I guess I’ll faint!

But then Mommy’s fear was easily replaced by relief and joy when she saw the baby’s hands coming out. Ah! Those cute little hands, so little, so soft! Then a few seconds after, the whole body followed, and he’s out! Wow! That was fast huh! Mommy felt silly crying in front of the monitor, witnessing that birth (bare with Mommy ok? She’s extra sentimental these days). It’s just beautiful to see a baby go out like that. Mommy can’t wait for Little Nicholas to go out too.

Oh! To hold Little Nicholas in my arms finally! No amount of blood or head twisting can stop me from giving birth. No amount of pain or fear can outweigh the bliss of seeing Little Nicholas at last!

Mommy read it in a book somewhere that the actual birth is painful due to many reasons. 10% is physical and 90% is functional (due to psychological and even emotional factors). Physical factors may include: the baby’s difficult position, baby’s big size, high blood pressure, fatigue, poor health and other unusual conditions. Functional causes can be:

1. Incomplete Muscle Relaxation - due to fear or counter responses to the physical pain

2. Improper Breathing - rapid and shallow breathing which depletes oxygen in the uterus and even causes toxicity and pain in every part of the skeletal muscles

3. Improper Positioning of Mom’s Body - some positions cause more pain

See? It isn’t so hard right? Mommy just have to make sure she isn’t scared and she’s [repared for D-Day. Everything will go smoothyl. It’s definitely a month (more or less) to go; let’s get the ball rolling and start the countdown. Mommy’s ready!

I know I’m taking this stuff rather strongly. It’s been days that I responded on a discussion in mylot but I still can’t get it off my mind. I guess I’m strongly affected by it.

You see, there was this guy who tells the world that he is being trapped in an unwanted pregnancy, in a responsibility that he doesn’t want to live with; that his girlfriend deceived him and is now forcing him into a marriage that he doesn’t want. He’s very selfish. He’s feeling betrayed? He’s feeling defrauded? He thinks he’s facing a dilemma? Why can he only think of himself? Was it how Little Nicholas’ Dad thought too?

I know I don’t have the right to judge other people though many people have judged me in the past. But I strongly believe that anybody, anyone, who abandons a child, is a big disappointment in this world. Nobody would want to have a parent as heartless as that. NO amount of reasoning can justify a father not wanting his own child.

No child is unwanted! That’s really unfair. A child doesn’t have any inkling about the activities of his supposed parents. It’s not the baby’s fault that these two people have lapsed on their birth control method, and now the baby has to suffer? It’s either abortion or abandonment. What a choice!

My Little Nicholas came unexpectedly; I never planned it this way. But God knows how much I wanted to be a mother. I even asked Him for a baby one day. Now He’s given me my Little Nicholas, though in a rather unpleasant way and poignant situation. Nevertheless, I asked for him and he was given to me. I am blessed; my Little Nicholas is a blessing. I love my Little Nicholas so much and I am willing to go all through these suffering and humiliation over and over again just to make sure my little angel is alright. I hope and pray that I’ll have enough love, that I’ll be enough for him to be happy.